b'The clinks of shot glasses. The Sleeping Beauty, Op. 66, Acther? Ohhh will Cindy and Gary give it a rest? Imrealise Im caught on something. Im stuck. I: Waltz then begins to play. no Doctor but couples who are six months preg-nant probably shouldnt go out clubbing. WhatThis is it. And a 1 2 3, 1 2 3, one step, two steps I thinkthey have isnt love, its stupidity. Waitthis is right. She giggles. This is not right; I mustI always expected it to be different. Dont know be an awful date. She laughs and tells me its al-is that? No Yes. Shes out tonight. She didnthow just different. right, she finds it cute. We switch positions andtell me. Maybe this night isnt wasted after all. she leads me around the hall. Others look but IOops sorry, excuse me coming through, sorry.Im in the drink, Natures drink. She comforts me dont mind, and I certainly dont mind her beingNearly there whos that? A friend? Thats cool,in my last moments, wrapping herself around me, this close to me. When were this close together Ithey seem nice. Ill make sure to say hi. Wait hugging me tightly. I cant move at all now. She can look into her eyes.watches as I slip in and out of consciousness. Its No. No. Friends. friends dont kiss like that. Iokay. Im okay with this. I wish her a happy life. Blue.see their lips locked, saliva drips from his lip toThis isnt her fault. I hope she knows that. Im hers as he pulls away. She leans back in for an- okay. Everything is okay. Im A beautiful blue. other. Suddenly, I realise Cindy and Gary may be stupid, but theyre stupidly in love. Not like me.ImShes stunning, no one here even compares.Im alone. I really am alone. Actually, its worst, This feels so intimate, I can feel her corset brushIm sober and alone.Im.against my jacket, the soft touch of her hands against my waist, whilst she can feel my ermExcuse me, bartender! Excuse me. Hello?Silence.phone. And a 1 2 3, 1 2 3, one step, two steps. PLEASE JUST SERVE ME ALREADY! Yes, hi, sorry, two shots of Jager oh five for a ten-The music stops and we can hear birds chirping. ner? Ill have ten. Cheers. Were walking down the path, its a brisk nightGagging noises. of another Winter, yet I dont feel cold, all I feel is her warmth. No alcohol in my system, I dontI think Ill stick to bottles on second thoughts. A need it. Im happy. She makes me happy. She isbeer please. I cant believe she did that. Another my love. Oh god, I love her.sip.There I was thinking Id be destined to die alone;The bottle clinks, and he glugs. The sound of rushing water.can I really be in love? Better question, can she really be in love with me? I dont have much toI look down from my bottle and see it below. offer. I dont have the best of personalities, andCans, bottles, condoms, the current drags the its not like I have the looks to compensate forrubbish away. I slide my hand across the railing that. Ive always had a face for radio they toldto feel the steel bars. They give me comfort. Not me. Surprisingly, none of this matters to her. Shethe comfort of the warmth, but the comfort of the leans over and whispers into my ear.cold, it lets me know I can still feel something. Soon even that disappears as my hands become (Softly)numb. Now all I can feel is the rust against the tips of my fingers. Rust on a surface that looked I love you.so clean. Sometimes its hard to see the rust. And just like that, Ive got it. Everything. WithI flick a bit off into the water. Nothing. It falls that one phrase, I feel I now have everything. Iinto the water, and I hear nothing from it, only tell her I love her back and we embrace. Im notthe waves continuing to crash against the side. alone. I have her. My heart beats only for her. Its a strong current. I climb over the railing, and I look down. A 1, 2, 3 and a 1, 2, 3. No, Im just The beats of club music play again. drunk. Fu-, I nearly Ive missed these beats these dirty stinkingA splash followed by silence. The voice is slightly echoed. beats. Feels a bit weird being here though. Why am I here when I could just be cozying up withIm sinking. Sinking under the surface. I soon 76 77'